Monday, November 10, 2008

Not a Cancer Patient

I haven't much felt like writing in here recently. I made a stuffed dragon instead. He breaths fire constantly. The truth is, I named myself 'not a cancer patient' in these pages because I don't want to be one. I want to live my life as if cancer has nothing to do with it. I want to get chemo and radiation and go about the rest of my life as a 27 year old enjoying the crisp winter air. That's what this blog is supposed to be about. I don't care about the gorey details anymore (though I will note the irony that I am suddenly moved to post something here on the same day I got an IV placed in my left hand, making typing quite awkward). I've been through all these symptoms before, I seem to have a slightly improved cocktail of drugs this time. (Though I will complain that I threw up on my slippers tonight, and had to throw them out.)

So the thing is, I haven't been writing because I feel like a hospital patient. That's not as criminal as feeling the cancer patient, but it's still letting the patient take over. I'm going to forgive myself the slide for now though, 'cuz I feel like shit!

4 comments:

Julie said...

I'm thinking about you. I'll call you in a bit and see how your day is going. I love you.

Chuck said...

"That's not as criminal as feeling the cancer patient, but it's still letting the patient take over. I'm going to forgive myself the slide for now though, 'cuz I feel like shit!"

Which is not as gross as feeling shit. Hope you're feeling better today Rose!

-Chuck

Sarah said...

I'm sorry about your slippers! I hope that you are feeling better!

brent said...

stuffed dragon that breathes fire constantly? cool. hope you are feeling better now, can't wait to see you for Thanksgiving!